Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Where to begin...

I just realized I haven't blogged since the big announcement. How life changes in a couple of weeks? Where do I begin?!? As far as baby goes, we are both doing great! Pregnancy is an amazing thing and I am in awe at how suddenly you feel differently, think differently and how your heart begins to grow with love for this baby growing inside. Nick said something interesting the other day that I totally believe to be true. He said he read somewhere that men feel like dad's the second they see the baby and women become mom's the second they find out they are pregnant. I can see how a man would have a hard time really feeling like a dad as they don't get to experience what women get to. I already am so protective of this little baby. It motivates all that I do now: what I eat, think, drink, how I exercise, etc. There aren't too many moments during the day that I am not feeling something related to this extraordinary miracle inside me. Nick and I went to the mall the other day and were in a sports store and we both were looking at these itty bitty shoes for babies. I had no idea how much Michael Jordan apparel there was out there for babies? To say the least, it has been a joyous time for us as we lay in bed and talk about what this baby will do to us and our lives. In the middle of this extreme joy, there has been some real sadness in my life. My best friend of, well, my whole life lost her precious baby this past weekend. She was over 20 weeks along; he was her precious baby boy. Her and her husband had mulled over names and had planned a future that included raising their son. The news was heartbreaking to everyone who knows them, not just because it was the loss of a precious life, but because anyone who really knows them, knows that they are the best people. They are happy and kind. Loving and filled with life. They are the kind of people that any child would be lucky to have as parents. So you question, why them? Why did Heavenly Father let this horrible thing happen to the best girl I know? And before you can finish saying the words, you are filled with a peace that lets you know that all will be okay. That Heavenly Father is still there, with his loving arms outstretched. He loves my dear friend, her husband and their little girl. But He knows more and, in the meantime, he will take care of that little boy until they get there! I am so grateful for the gospel. I am so grateful that families are eternal and that my friend will get to see her little boy again. I am also grateful for this friend, who in her darkest hour, was worrying about me and how this news would affect me. What a lucky girl I am to have her in my life! I love you and as always, my thoughts and prayers are with you.

7 comments:

Shuldberg said...

Now you see why my posts are far and few between!! Try blogging with FOUR crazy kids running around!!! :)
Glad to hear all is going well. Sorry to hear about your friend, whom I think I know quite well, but not for certain. I honestly can't imagine what going through something like that must be like. My prayers and thought go out to her and her family.

Matt & April Herman said...

Thank you Amanda, I couldn't ask for sweeter words. This has been an extremely hard thing to go through, but i am convinced that the Lord knows what is best. At least i have one perfect child already. I can't say enough about my friends, who have supported and rallied around us. I love you so much and am so greatful for your little spirit growing inside you. They are one lucky child too. Talk to you soon.

Parkinson Family said...

You are already a super mommy! I'm so excited for you and looking forward to baby playdates! I agree that life changes for women the minute they discover they're prego! As my belly has grown and Jared has been able to feel baby kick, it has become more of a reality for him. I can't wait to see his excitement as he holds baby for the first time! It's funny how protective one can be with a growing baby. I think I give smokers the most evil stares as I walk by. Oops! I'm so happy your pregnancy is going well!

losing my needles said...

Pregnancy is such an exciting time. That baby is so lucky to have a mom with such a strong testimony.

HailerStar said...

Hey Amanda,
I wanted to send April a card but have not her address. Could you send it to me by email please? Thank you.

Heather (Roberts) Halliday

hailerstarATgmailDOTcom

Starley Family said...

I am sorry to hear such sad news about your friend. Was this April? Anyway I guess I shouldn't guess. They are lucky to have such great friends like you and Nick for support. Love ya, Stace

Starley Family said...

Ahh...I should have read the comments first.