Wednesday, February 11, 2009

I'm back!

We FINALLY got our computer fixed so now I am back to the world wide web. Let me start by saying how cut off I have felt - how did we ever survive without the internet at our fingertips!?!?! But now that I am back to blogging, don't worry, I am not going to only talk about Brady and being a mom - that will only make up for 90% of my writing:-) I remember when I first found out I was pregnant, I was sitting with my then visiting teachers, Heather and Lori, and I was saying that when my baby was born, I didn't want to me one of those moms that only talks about their kid. I wanted to still be me - be able to talk about the things that I loved before the baby came. Well, it turns out that I was so naive. Being a mom is what I am and what I have always wanted in my heart. Secretly, and not so secretly at times, all I wanted was to be one of those moms that had a baby to talk about. But four weeks into being a mom, I finally understand why mom's are the way they are. We are still who we were - I am still Amanda, quirky, funny, awkward at times, curious - but since having Brady, I am just a better version of myself. That's why we talk about them so much because we realize that when we are holding this child, a child that we share with our Heavenly Father, we are a part of something very sacred and wonderful. I can't help but talk all about him because every time I speak his name I am reminded of how blessed I am and how lucky I am that I get to be his mom. Having a winter baby gives you WEEKS of seclusion with your infant to reflect on these things and when I think about our journey to get Brady, I can't help but feel so grateful and get teary each and every time. He's a gift to me, to Nick, to our marriage and hopefully he will be a gift to this world. Sorry I am so sappy - I blame the hormones! My friend asked me today what I have learned in these last four weeks of being Brady's mom and my answer was - what haven't I learned? Good grief - I was naive. I thought being a mom would come about as natural to me as breathing being I was older, have been around LOTS of kids, etc. Boy was I wrong. I have learned patience, what a gift sleep is, what a WONDERFUL invention the binky is and that someone needs to invent something for boy babies to protect them from their own urine during diaper changes. Poor Brady has taken one too many hits to the face!!! But seriously, I have learned so much from him already. I have learned how much he needs good parents - I had the best parents and I want that for Brady. I have learned that their isn't any hurt or sadness that holding a newborn baby can't heal. Being his mom is the best - there's nothing left to say! Here are some pics from his photo shoot with Natalie, who is a very talented lady! Thank you - these pics are priceless!!!

17 comments:

The Critchlow Family said...

He is just so precious Amanda! I wanna meet this little guy! Next time we are in the area we will have to get together with you guys. Cherish this time with him while he is so small because they grow up so fast!! I can't believe that Joshua is almost 3 and Natalie is almost 1. Where did the time go?!!

Shuldberg said...

AWWW...very cute. Babies are life changing. I remember Dylan's face being a target many times. I recently learned of a product called "PeePee TeePees", maybe check that out!! Never had those around when my boys were little.
Glad to hear things are going well for you. It is exhausting, but well worth it!!
Congratulations!

Mel said...

He is so stinking cute! Wow! I am so happy that you have entered motherhood, it is the best!

stephanietworek said...

What a sweet boy. I miss when my little girl was that little. I miss those baby wrinkles! Those are some great pictures!!

James and Amy said...

What a beautiful little boy! I agree, being a mommy is the best!

Matt & April Herman said...

Oh My Gosh! He is so adorable! I wish I could be there to hold him:) You guys are great parents. Brady is so blessed to be born into your family. I already love that kid so much and I haven't even met him yet:)

The Baldwin Brigade said...

How great to have you back online! After 2 boys I learned to always have washcloths on hand during a diaper change. As soon as that diaper came off, a washcloth went on. They're absorbent and easy to wash and save all from getting sprayed. And they're already in your house!

losing my needles said...

He is so cute. And so tiny. I don't think that at 4 weeks old he is even as big as mine were when they came out. I've seen those peepee teepees at Motherhood stores. Plus, you could get them online probably. I have found that mine pretty much outgrew it before too long, but I have friends whose didn't. Once I'm sure that no one is sick, and I'm not carying any germs, maybe I'll call you so I can stop by and see you.

Scrap Happy said...

Oh I LOVE him.

{I think they're called "peepee teepees" - google it!}

Parkinson Family said...

What beautiful priceless pictures! I love your post Amanda! What in the world would we do without binkies?!

Clark and Liesel said...

Amanda- that was such a touching post. What a great mom you are! The pictures are so adorable and priceless. Thats great you had them taken so early on his life to remember these newborn days. I am glad that you are enjoying being a mom! I am sure I will be asking you for advice in a few short weeks!

Nicole said...

Amanda!! Brady is so precious! Natalie really captured all his cuteness. I love reading your posts. I can say Amen and Amen. I feel it a grand blessing to be a mom and to be part of creating little people. They are special! Congratulations and welcome to the wonderful world of Motherhood.

Aaron and Melissa said...

You are so cute. I love reading all of your heart-felt posts. You uplift me and always make me smile. You are an amazing person and a great Mom. What a sweet little baby you guys have. Thanks for sharing the pictures. Cherish the little moments! They change so fast!

Kayla said...

Look at how tiny he is! So adorable.

HailerStar said...

Protect them from their own urine ... someone did invent this, ironically it's called a TeePee. *Think of those cone shaped cups at a doctor's office, only in fun colors and such*
The odd things you learn on the internet. *I'm not a mom ... yet ... but many of my friends are!*

Natalie said...

Man, you have such better perspective than I did at that point. All I knew was I was tired. Nick is going back to work soon, right? We should get together during the day sometime while you're still home.

Krista said...

DYING to smooch his chubby little cheeks. Love those pics. Your friend is brilliant. AMEN to everything you've said about being a mom. It's so easy pre-mom to think you have it all figured out and REALLY, how hard can it be- then BAM you're a mom and you realize you had no idea how hard and difficult and wonderful and perfect it could be. Can't wait to see you sis!