Wednesday, April 8, 2009
I got laid off last week. In the moment, I was sad, confused, and felt a little lost. I had worked at that job since my college graduation in 2004. It had become a part of who I was. I felt I was good at it and that I really worked hard to make my contribution to the company. But, no one can foresee hard times and it's hard to gracefully deal with this when you are an owner of a small business. Except my boss' did deal with me gracefully and as soon as the shock left me, I felt this sense of relief. When I got pregnant with Brady, Nick and I both felt like me staying home couldn't possibly be an option. Because of all my medical problems, I NEED to have good insurance to pay for my ever consuming medical costs. I had come to terms with that decision and even had a sweet feeling in my heart telling me that everything would be fine - the Lord would provide a way for me to be a great mom and a great employee. Well, my employers were very honest with me about the condition of the company and they, at first, cut my hours - allowing me to keep my insurance. Then about two weeks later I get the call that they need me to come in. Brady was sick so I told my boss that I wouldn't be able to do so. I could tell in his voice that this was the call I thought I was dreading. I was being laid off. After hanging up, I had a good cry. I called my husband and my mom and they both reassured me that all would be well. Nick came home with roses and a card and told me that when I told him, he just felt relieved. It seems the big decision, letting me be a stay at home mom, was made for us. It was one we felt we couldn't make on our own - that we would be financially irresponsible to quit a good job with benefits knowing we were heading into a master's program. So the next day I woke up feeling so happy and also relieved. It seems that the Lord provided again for my family. Nick and I did our part by being frugal and saving, saving, saving for years and now the Lord had filled in where we couldn't by bringing us both peace of mind. How can I deny my Savior? How could I ever deny that He is with me and loves me. Being home with Brady is just one of the MANY tender mercies bestowed upon me - and I am grateful.