Monday, May 4, 2009
Did I really sign up for this???
The past 5 days I have been sick - not just stuffy nose sick - like, I can't swallow, breathe, talk sick. I am so congested my teeth hurt, I can't sleep at night, and now I have pulled a muscle in my back from all the coughing. Throw in an infant who still wakes up to eat during the night and you have one unhappy, sleep deprived mommy. Don't get me wrong, Brady is a pretty great baby. He's generally happy and content. But, when he has a need, you better get to it and get to it fast. He's pretty high maintenance in that respect. Well you couple my being sick with his impatience - needless to say, we have been struggling the last couple of days. How do you be a good mommy when all you want is to curl up in the fetal position and have your mommy take care of you? I try really hard not to complain about mother issues because I feel like I am lucky to even be a mom. Honestly, there were days during and after my transplant that I wasn't sure! So, to be here, with a beautiful, healthy baby is a dream come true - but just not this past several days. And what I am learning is that, as a mom, you can't call in sick. You can't cash in on a sick day and sit at home with your jammies on and sleep all day. But what you do get is a sympathetic husband who lets you sleep in and covers the morning feedings. You get a baby with his big, gummy grin who is so excited to see you. And that ain't half bad!