Monday, May 4, 2009

Did I really sign up for this???

The past 5 days I have been sick - not just stuffy nose sick - like, I can't swallow, breathe, talk sick. I am so congested my teeth hurt, I can't sleep at night, and now I have pulled a muscle in my back from all the coughing. Throw in an infant who still wakes up to eat during the night and you have one unhappy, sleep deprived mommy. Don't get me wrong, Brady is a pretty great baby. He's generally happy and content. But, when he has a need, you better get to it and get to it fast. He's pretty high maintenance in that respect. Well you couple my being sick with his impatience - needless to say, we have been struggling the last couple of days. How do you be a good mommy when all you want is to curl up in the fetal position and have your mommy take care of you? I try really hard not to complain about mother issues because I feel like I am lucky to even be a mom. Honestly, there were days during and after my transplant that I wasn't sure! So, to be here, with a beautiful, healthy baby is a dream come true - but just not this past several days. And what I am learning is that, as a mom, you can't call in sick. You can't cash in on a sick day and sit at home with your jammies on and sleep all day. But what you do get is a sympathetic husband who lets you sleep in and covers the morning feedings. You get a baby with his big, gummy grin who is so excited to see you. And that ain't half bad!

8 comments:

Aaron and Melissa said...

Hang in there! It is tough being a mom when you are sick!

Becky said...

Ugh, sorry you are feeling so lousy. It's hard taking care of someone else when you don't even feel well enough to take care of yourself. Get well soon!

Clark and Liesel said...

Wow...you poor thing. Thankfully I haven't had to experience this situation yet. I wish I lived closer so I could bring you a meal. Hang in there friend!

Starley Family said...

Oh Manda I am so sorry. That is the worst. I felt like it was a horrible cycle trying to stay up with milk on top of my health on top of my kids and husband. My heart goes out to you. I hope you feel better soon and that Brady doesn't pick it up as well.

Matt & April Herman said...

It is hard being a mom. but you are so great at it:) Sorry you are still sick. That is the worst. Maybe your mommy can come help for a day?:) Love you Hope you are feeling better today:)

Bloom Family said...

I've had bronchitis this week too, so I TOTALLY understand. I want so bad to just sleep for 1 day. Nope, not so possible. Especially when I'm the one who's got the milk, so I get to wake up. :) Hope you get better quick!

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Danielle said...

yep,fortunately, you did sign up for "this" and how lucky we all are that you did! You're a great mom!

Krista said...

Welcome to motherhood sistah! You are just so great to see the good when it doesn't feel so good. Brady is lucky to have you too.